I already decided it

no dreaming
no imagination
no expectation
and finally
NO REGRET !
I felt so sorry 2 myself

yes,no loss no gain
I rather choose to loss it
I dun allowed myself to get hurt
or perhaps,i dun wish to

I should love myself
fight for my future is my main goal
so,i have decided it..

i had lost most of my time
i understand i maybe too late
but who care?
as long as i realise it and willing to make a change
so,what i wish now
is 72 hours a day
time is limited
so,i hav to create a miracle in such limited time
can i do it ?

u r too good to me
so,yinling
juz let it go..
LET IT GO ~

a soothing feeling

Arhaa, I found that i feel comfortable when talking wif you
it is my vry 1st time to have such feeling
i duno how to describe the feeling
but juz simply feel fresh and nice to chat wif you
actually,i cant believe i will take d initiative to sms wif you
especially,u r a boy

so what ?
it do happen..


you are indeed a good person
i appreciate our friendship

should I give up?

I hate d characteristics that i hold now..
I wonder why i kept yawning when i wan to study
where is my study mood?
since when i hav bcame so lazy ?
i dun even try to cope d problem i faced myself,
i was too dependent on others to find a solution for me.
oh no!! i have changed??
dont deny,yinling,
you are now a super lazy gurl..
time is limited,and
YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP NOW
dun ever try to find any excuse
i was really fed up with it...

and you,stop giving me hopes
maybe it is d time to lower my expectation on you
i dun know why i have put you as my priority
i am not d worms in your stomach
i dun noe what are you trying to tell me
my six sense is not that strong.
plz,dun try to disappoint me after giving me some hopes
it's hurts ..
speak it out
at least i know you care it or not..

.

st.john anniversary

                                                                        preparing...

our first dish,look nice right?

                                                              

   kok hong fail to 'pick up' d 'bao yu' using his chopsticks and yet not giving up

actually i felt surprise to see such a grand dinner 

organized by our school st.john 

it is not bad 

d dinner started at 6.30 sharp (i think)

but i was late 

due to some problem

so  i miss d photo taking session wiv all those leng zai leng lui

n our classmates too!

but it is ok..

becoz i can still update myself wif d photos uploaded in facebook

haha 

before going for d dinner,

both me and xing ern hav a study group in my house

we hav done some chemi questions

and i found tat

i was really weak on tis subject

and i have to put more effort on it

if i wan to get an A

Now,i was busy and worried wif my homeworkss

since i havnt do it after school on friday

tat is a lot peka tat i havnt finish

so ,i hav to off for my homeworks now..

明白了，领悟了

最近 ，从朋友中领悟自己的错误
虽然这不是第一次，但却是刚好让我可以好好反省的一次
或许，连我自己也不清楚
原来，一直以来，都是我的错
甚至，单纯到认为自己是无辜的
天啊，我从几何时，变得如此自我？

其实，从我发现，我们之间出现问题
之后来尝试去解决，到现在
我都在埋怨是别人的错
看似解决了，但实际上，你我清楚明白
我们心中始终有面墙，是还未突破的
我们一天不去了解，问题始终不会解决

我相信你们都明白
我向来都很重视友情
我不希望身边的朋友因为我受到伤害后
却因为怕伤害我，而选择不告诉我
我不值得你们为我这么做

我是可以接受适当的被伤害
要在我面前说出的确不容易
我只想说，我不是你们想象中的那么懦弱
是我错的，我还是会接受和改变的
怎么说，
反正，你们认识的我，不是真正的我

明天就要见面了，
老实说，我有点不清楚该怎么做

我不与你们分享和分担
感觉上，我有点自私
相反的，你们都很愿意与我分担你们的烦恼
我想说，我不与你们分担，只不过是因为我不希望我再增添你们的烦恼
还有，我相信自己还可应付得来
再不然，就是我觉得我的烦恼根本就不是烦恼
只不过是我自己想太多而已

当然，还是想说对不起
我不知道，这次会不会又是因为想太多而误解了谁
但，就算是误解，我觉得这误解是值得的
至少，你让我看清自己的错误
让我有机会反省
或许那不是我，但我依然觉得你形容得没错
我是有些过份了

抱歉

well,finally i understand

well,
finally
i get what you mean,
honestly speaking, i was shocked when i saw it
and it hurts too
sorry,i am juz a normal human being
i do have my own expression
however,i understand it was my fault
i accept it ,and i will try to figure out my problems
of course,i will see through my weaknesses seriously...

i never realised it was my fault
or more correctly,
i din discover that i was wrong too!!
what i do is,
keep on complaining to others
or perhaps,hoping others will find a solution for me

oh...why?
why i was so selfish?
i m like typing to a computer , facing a white screen
looking through the reflection of myself
and feel unfamiliar with myself..
who am i ?

sorry,friends
i prefer u all to share with me
all my weaknesses
rather than keeping it inside your hearts
i know it is quite hard to speak it out in front of me
but at least let me know
it is better to hurt me once
if not,i think i will pretend that i was right

i m not a perfect ppl
but i will try
at least , try my very best to have a change to myself

finally,
i want to apologize to my friends
that i hurt or create problems to them before
especially my transport problems
instead of asking for helps from others,i will perhaps settle it by my own next time

sorry~

stop thinking,start studying

pictures of my imagination keep "flowing" in my mind
i cant control them frm not thinking about it
although i was sure that it wouldnt happen
exam is arond d corner,yet i cant concentrate on my studies
i wasnt that bad
i think i can handle it as soon as possible
it is not d time 4 me 2 think such nonsense
so plz..wake me up!
i dun wan 2 stand on d stage during sch assembly bcoz of my bad results
brain,can u stop thinking about that?
leave some space 4 my bio,maths chemi,and pa...
or juz provide some strength 4 me 2 study..
i dun wan 2 be a last minute person
but i have to be right now
coz it is really short of time!!

so,can someone plz wake me up!!!
stop thinking and start studying!!

YOU,sorry i have 2 keep it deep in my heart for a moment 4 my own goods

hope u understand..